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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year's

Well I have to say I'm so glad 2009 is going to be over in 1 hour and 45 minutes. It's been a tough year for me, emotionally, physically, mentally. I've been so challenged in so many ways.

The baby weight has not come off like it did my first pregnancy so I'm having major issues with that so I've decided to take the 100 days of Weight Loss Challenge by Linda Spangle. I'm starting on January 4th, and the 100th day will be the day we leave on our trip (too coincindetial if you ask me), must be God's way for showing me the way.

A year ago tonight my dad was diagnosed with Cancer. It's still so hard for me to believe he is gone.

I've become a person I don't like very much. I've become someone I don't even recognize anymore. I look forward to 2010 with open arms.

May the next 100 days be filled with renewal, self discovery, personal growth, and a shrinking body and regain my self esteem. May I look in the mirror and finally accept the person looking back.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I'm Back....

Well it's been about 6 months since I've posted anything. I have to say life just gets in the way sometimes. I'm making a goal for for 2010 to try and blog at least once a week if not more. Working full time, raising two active boys and sharing my life my with husband and our two dogs, leaves little time for myself...and it shows in my body.

I've put my own needs to the side and have been eating through my depression for the past 6 months. As many of you know I lost my father to Cancer back in March. It's been a rough 6 months, I'm on anti depressants and seeing a therapist (with the holidays it's been a few months) and I can tell I'm slipping as I'm eating to fill the void in my heart/life.

This grief is nothing like I've experienced before and unfortunately I turn to food when I'm sad or upset or just downright bored...I know how is that possible in such an active family? I get so caught up in my family that I just haven't taken care of myself physically the way I need to.

My 2nd goal for 2010 is to get healthy again, lose the weight and find happiness within myself again. Back in 2000 I lost 100 lbs in 11 months doing the PRISM weight loss program, I went from a 16/18 to a 9/10 pant size. www.plwp.com and swimming a 1/2 mile daily.

Well...those are my goals for 2010. Starting January 1st I will begin a 24 week program, it is broken down in to 4 phases, each consisting of 6 weeks. It consists of eating food the way God created it to be, in it's whole and natural state. This means oliminating processed food which shouldn't be hard for me since I have Celiac Disease and shouldn't be eating that type of food. But for me portion control and eating when I'm not hungry are my problems. Obstaining from those foods that are triggers for me. Diet Coke, Chips, Butter, Cheese, and of course Chocolate (became my best friend after being diagnosed with Celiac since it didn't have gluten in it) before that I hated chocolate. Go figure? OH and wine...my stress reliever, my sugar habit, bye bye. At least for now.

The first 6 weeks is about cleansing your body and removing foods from your system.

"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect" Romans 12:2

Today is a new day...it is a celan slate with no mistakes on it.